Letting go is not over yet…

The relationship has been ended months ago but still she is in struggle on how to let it go completely.  She has been trying so hard but the memories are still there that cuts deep each day of her life.  Trying her best not to think about it but her heart whispering his name.  Truly, madly, deeply in love with a guy who she thinks belongs to her.

Asking herself why her heart deny that it is over.  It is not easy to let go because of those happy moments they have shared.  Those moments they have shared are keeps on haunting her that made her cry at night.  Letting go is not over yet for her.  That is why she keeps on reading their conversations online, email and letters.  Until she felt the pain of the breaking up, she will find it hard to move on and let go of him and the feeling.  I pray that time will come she will feel no more pain everytime she is looking back those memories.  When there is no pain, it only tells that she is over it and now wants to let it go.  Only time can tell because only time heals all wounds in the past. 

Losing my temper…

My day was perfectly plan, woke up early, eat breakfast, clean the house, doing my online stuff and then take a nap. Amongst those I have mentioned, I was not able to accomplished it because of my nephew’s bad condition. It is only me and him again in the house as others are going out, school and work. I do not know what happened to my nephew but he is throwing up. How can I finished any of my plans when he is throwing up somewhere in the house?

I am losing my temper to him. I am so sorry to my little nephew because I shouted at him because he adds another job for me today. Now, I realized how bad I am to him. He is one year old and cannot speak what he feels and here I am angry at him. Even though I am angry at him, he comes near me and hug me and smile. I am really so bad kind of aunt today. I forgot to understand my nephew. I promise never to do it again, never to loss my temper and to have more patience to him. By the way, I have shared a photo of him and me. Good day readers and happy weekend!

Rest At Last…

The world is so busy, people are busy at work, at school and even at home.  Seems like time is too short for us to finish the things that we are doing.  And time is not enough for us to take some rest.  It is good to take some rest because our body needs to regain the energy that has been lost for too much working.  We only have one body and so we have to take good care of it because when this body becomes weaker and sick, we cant find a replacement.  
I am just at home, babysitting my brother’s kids, doing household chores and my online stuff.  Simple things as they say but mind you, household chores is the most tiring job ever.  They think that it is easy to work at home and we can rest, but in my case I find it hard to find time to rest.  Seems like job at home is neverending job.  We do it out of love not for any money. The past week, I cannot find a time to take some rest because the house is so crowded when kids are around.  But today, house is quiet because kids are at school.  I can take my rest and a long nap maybe.lol  Thanks God for a day of peace and quiet.  I will go to my dream land now. zzzzzz…..

Suffering from Loss Bowel Movement

Today I am planning to get some rest and more sleep because I am not feeling well.  I carried my nephew for him to take a morning nap so that I can take my nap as well.  My nephew is half asleep when my sister knocking on the door.  She did not go to work because she is suffering from loss bowel movement since last night.  She wants me to go with her to the clinic to have her check.  And because she is pregnant we cannot just buy over the counter medicine. 

My plan for today to get some rest is ruined by my sister.  I woke up my nephew, get  ready him ready and myself and we are heading to the clinic.  My plans to get some rest turns out to be a tiring day for me.  Even though I did not get some rest at least my day is fruitful because I accompany my sister to the clinic.  Her condition is better than mine.  We get prescribed medicine by the doctor and now she is feeling better and the little angel inside her womb is better.  Thanks God! 

Blessed with my Family

Last week my hand is burned from cooking.  It is badly burned that cause me having fever because it is swelling.  It is so painful that it is so difficult to move my hand.  It is too hard doing things with one hand only.  If I could turn back time I should take extra careful while cooking.  Since the damage is already done, all I can say is ‘what if’. 

I cannot do my laundry and cannot help them doing household chores.  I appreciate what my family did to me.  They bought me some medicine for my burned hand, do household chores for me and even doing my own laundry.  Truly our family will always be there for us.  We can always count on them when we are in need and needed a shoulder to lean on.  I am so thankful to God for giving me such a wonderful family.  I am so blessed to have them beside me.  Though we have misunderstanding sometimes, still they are here for me.  And those misunderstandings makes the family relationship stronger.